The Outspoken Blvd

Think of two casinos as two people this is a hypothetical not real life, ones an elite casino one is a developing run down casino The elite casino -State of the Art Architecture -A beautiful decor around the property of fountain, trees, flowers, along with a beautiful park -Inside its like the taj mahal very shiny very pristine, granite and stone like walls with marble flooring -A hotel front desk with a nice wood counter with carved artwork along with a tapestry on the back of its wall -You walk into the casino the nicest chairs with the latest slot machines, tables that are made beautiful better than anything you would see in a regular casino -each hotel room is opulent in its decor, nice beds, spacious rooms, and 3 tall towers -It has a pretty buffet with the best food and so much variety, a row of restaurants of fine dining and a mega shopping center with stores from around the world -it has three theaters and an arena -the casino is commented as a wonder of the world

I get I should forget about and move on, screwed any chance of working for mlb teams however, I do want to address something I said I had my theories and told three people about them, one I never should've really told. Now looking back on it I never should of said anything, not because of the consequences nor the shunning but because it wasn't the time and made me look bitter. It very well could have been true. When I did that, I knew it got around those people can't keep there mouths shut and it was gonna get around I still feel bad about that even though its done weird. Edit: I will say this and i believe this to be true I never had a chance at full time I had a feeling that they played me and I think I'm right on this, thats not to say that there weren't people who didn't want me to succeed because there were. There were many verbal and non verbal cues that i looked back on plus I had conveyed my goal to the wrong people. Which in the end you can'

you know ive said before midwest people are the nicest people they are built that way, they are raised to be nice to people and be a community. That being said, I want to clarify something, it doesn't mean they aren't deceptive or don't have a second personality because some of them do. They might be nice at work very happy go lucky and friendly and be a total ass hole when it comes to family life. Females as well as Males may be this woman or man of god then but at night they're total heathens and they sleep with multiple partners. What I'm saying is just because they are good hearted people which they are doesn't mean they don't have some type of demon.

Alone with no one just peace and tranquility and maybe a bit of gaming (I know I'm a grown ass adult). The reason I say this is simple I don't annoyed or bothered. Sure its lonely I get that and if I had friends or a relationship I may be singing a different tune but its good to unwind. My Christmas was going to Vegas to see a show, a game and a couple of museums. Plus when i went back to Christmas last year lets just say without going into detail there was very bad luck. For some reason when I go to Vegas I always have luck (not winning I didn't even gamble this last trip rather that everything will run smoothly) not to say i don't watch my back you have to especially on the strip. I make the best of it, seeing everything else that could happen, it could be worse and I do not live a bad life so far. The only drawback is the loneliness and I'm use to that now, a girl had told me back in Leavenworth Kansas in Jr High that I'd be alone I wont have friends and wi

So I figured I'd get some Boulevard brewing which has some interesting tasting beers and a mass variety. I don't usually get beer or alcohol in fact before this I didn't get any beer for about 3 weeks. My experience of drinking again has got me realizing one thing. This beer that I'm drinking is poison, not only has it got me crashing at unexpected times when I'm drowsy. But, as far as bloating and congestion not to mention the trouble breathing especially laying down all though this might be acid reflux and heartburn (might also be from hot food) makes me realize I'm better off without it completely. Even in moderation I can't handle this stuff anymore not to mention the hangover after you stop and wake up in the morning.

Deception watch out for it don't think you know someone without really getting to know them. Or they have a dark side, we all have a dark side I believe that is all in the nature of a human being. Some of us paint ourselves in a positive light in public only to do things that we would not like the public to know Some of us are blunt and straight forward on what we are and that tends to stray us from ever interacting at times Some of us are just quiet the personality never comes out you never know who we are. Which is better that's just a matter of interpretation. See you are what you are based off of perception and interpretation. I have found this out the hard way. I believe its the best way in that it gets to change and adapt to the environment better. You learn from your mistakes to not talk about the Vegas shooting of 2017 that killed 58 people so openly for instance. Remember we all have our weaknesses, our darkness, our lightness and our personality, no matter how

Taught me one thing.... You don't have to Gamble You don't have to Drink To have fun in good ole vegas. For the same expense you'd be paying for drinking and gambling you can pay for shows For instance I usually gamble when I go to Vegas, instead of spending it on gambling I put it toward a show and a hockey game. Of course I used myvegas and went to a wax museum and went to a fort up in the north of vegas as well as Goodsprings and Primm. I was never bored and always busy. In fact I should've booked one more day because I could have went to more suburbs and museums. Thought about seeing the Mob Museum and Neon Museum and decided that its too much. For instance 4 or some years ago the Neon Museum was 12 dollars, now its over 20 dollars. To me its too expensive. After the trip was over I said "I should of done this a long time ago"

You know at first going to the xmas party I was pissed I thought the party sucked having no one talk to me not joining in the festivities of drinking even a person in my department who I sit by during lunch didn't really mingle with me Now the party sucked just being real to me I'd rather see a bigger bonus or higher gift card balance (company gave us gift cards) or better benefits but it made me realize something  See when I didn't drink this was during college and the first part of living where I live today I tended to be more laid back and quiet and I kept to myself yes..  I'd make friends here and there none really stuck most were like acquaintances Anyways my point I for the first time in a while realized that I was being myself. Sat by myself wore a jersey while other people came in street clothes some dressed up, had water and ate food, only talked to people who initiated contact first with a very brief conversation. I wasnt trying to impress people or be differe

When I work I try to do it a steady pace nowadays I base it off of a couple of things: Growth opportunities Position Status part of full time Pay Now let me start off by saying if I ran a company I would employee lazy people I would give those people a raise every year for service however I would not go above and beyond for these guys as far as development with them if there a groundskeeper I would keep them there they wouldn't have any upward climb nor cross training. Would they be full time? Sure if I needed that but this is me hypothetically running a business. Alright so back to the topic at hand status of full time isn't that big of a deal, some of the benefits of full time positions these days suck.  Pay: can be a difference people will move from one position to another if it meant 2 to 4 extra dollars. This is not everything though Position: if you are entry level you may want to work hard to get bonuses if you are in management you definitely want to hit your numbers fo

What so you do if you want something most people say no too? You be nice and respectful This very thing happened to me recently I gave a loan to someone at work, they legit had some issues and the amount was small. As I took out money at a gas station she asked me to double it first red flag After the transaction no conversation whatsoever not even an exchange of numbers (whole dept has her phone number) I dont care about losing the money which is in most cases you dont get the loan paid back. What is bothersome which would bother anyone is the lack of a thank you or comraderery 

Thought just occured to me that I might be getting played and that girl at work is either trying to get me in a bind or embarrass me then again she might just be super nice.... who knows all I know is she acts a bit too nice who knows I'm just gonna flow with it and see where that takes me this is just too odd for mr who knows 

If its one thing I've learned in life is that you continually learn about things and the same things repeat over and over gain. For instance, I am talking to this girl at work that is alot like the girl i knew in my previous job that i had a crush on that I never talked to. Its so weird too she has so many faults, on paper, she's a no go as far as a relationship but some reason i like her she's sweet like I imagined that girl i had a crush on still do haha. The only thing i can't stop really is overthinking for some reason i struggle with that. hmm

Let me start off by saying I've gambled before And I take a trips to Vegas. The difference is I budget and I in a sense you could say "do it my way" when doing vegas. Be sure to use apps like MyVegas, Say and Play, Groupon etc to cut down on costs Most of this is going to be focused on what I've used on MyVegas I may make a tutorial on how to use it in my next blog posting. MyVegas Ideal Strategy: Accumulate chips, the app will give you daily spins, free chips, free chips if you watch ads, and free chips if your friends play the app (annoying facebook requests farmville like). until you have 100,000,000 if you cannot wait that long cut it in half, if you still cannot wait that long then do whatever i tend to play my games at 10,000,000 chips. Reason being is because you can do a lot more with a load of chips, they do have events every week at least for myvegas slots on facebook. There is also a goal feature where you can get achievements and advance that way on

Let me give you an example My manager's except for my direct, very fake, seem like the people who would deceive you or talk behind you're back but thats everyone. People I've met they either try to avoid talking to you by acting like they're talking on the phone or texting, look first impression is everything, but, what happened to "don't judge books by they're cover" Funny story today at work i had this one dude trying to protect this girl i like in returns, everytime I'd go near (once to leave and once because i forgot my keys) and she'd be alone he'd come running back, yeah like I'm going to mess with her. I don't need that headache she's already perceived me as something so I'm not gonna fight that. Then i got one girl whose being nice but i don't know what the intentions are and another who talked about sports and philly and abruptly quit. For one of the few times I sat with people and yeah it was cool int

This is a theory and an opinion this probably will never happen the stadium that was built for a professional team sprint center in downtown kcmo has almost 10 years on it without a professional franchise hockey or basketball (only exhibition games) One day at break probably at the same dead end job I'll be going to espn.com on my phone and an article will say "kansas city gets NHL expansion team" they'd name the team Kansas City Scouts another headline "indigenous groups in uproar of the name Scouts owner of kc nhl franchise defends and says it's to remember native Americans who helped us build this nation" The owner would do a Foley and create a creed for the team. The Scout is observes and protects A Scout is cunning and wise spreads they're vast knowledge to accomplish great deeds Without the Scout the west would not be explored many people would parish without the knowledge of the Scout thats horrible but something like that. They would adopt th

I talk to this person every day or at least say hi, this person is one one person who talks alot. I dont know why but I listen and engage. I guess it breaks up the monotony or maybe it reminds me of what could of been with a girl I like shoot I still like her but it wasn't meant to be personality and I guess the type plus she was like 25 or something. This person looks just like her and like 6 years older, do I think its gonna lead anywhere no and that's a h e double hockey stick no maybe wrong but I dont think I am. Dont want to reveal more. Just like the other one who was into sports.  I'm guessing they're getting to know me and oddly enough both had looked similar to the one I still like the control room supe. Damn even though the other one doesn't talk to me anymore that's how I imagine how the conversation would flow its weird and dumb I see them I see her

Imagine this you have a movie about a girl and she's quiet and acts professional then gets into a field that has a gray area like ballpark security. She comes from the midwest never had a criminal record hung out with some questionable people but we all have. At work she's nice and smiles outside of work same thing but she is part of a criminal enterprise and she's like the underboss because of tradition she is not labeled as an underboss but some tough guy is labeled that could totally make movie out of that 

You know I've always wondered if the ballpark had illicit activities going around inside like exchanging illicit products or loan sharking and I have a feeling it does. Some food workers who were screened at multiple phones. Security seemed lax between the guards my guess is organized crime has already infiltrated years ago and corruption That's why you hear about guard who sold bobbleheads idk. There's a reason why an attractive girl got hired in a year to be the supervisor 

You see someone smile and be nice it's very misleading they're either fake or miserable at least 70% of the time it's just amazing if we had more genuine people the world would be a better place

So I watched the Joker Movie i have to say this, after i watched it I said "what the fuck did I just watch?" Whenever a movie gives me that reaction its a good movie it did its job. The message it conveyed to me is never give up because you might accomplish something... I know pretty weird right, its a movie about a psychopath but he stumbled and stumbled and stumbled picked himself up and made himself something it resonates with the poor and middle class, even in the world of sports I always enjoy when a last round pick or a person whose too small or too weak makes it to the pros. Ever since that movie I've been in love with this song by Frank Sinatra called " Thats Life " yet I feel this song belongs in some mob movie where a member steals funding from the family so he gets a hit on him and gets killed, lays on the ground bleeding from the mouth. Guy who shoots him walks over and takes the silver dollar out of his hand and puts a bullet instead. Might of bee

What if the control room supervisor that I was under and my current supervisor were to switch. She was alot more involved and strict that's what it seems, but how would she be in a warehouse would she be particular. I feel people would love her especially the girl who looks like her but older they'd be talking everyday but, hate her particulars. Now everyone would love my supervisor if he went to the control room. People would think hes quiet and cool it would also be way more laid back.   

Check this puppy out some good delicious grub very fulfilling it's one of the few things I like at work besides the isolation with people it's ok I feel like a goaltender who is quiet or a defense a penalty killer or a baseball pitcher it feels homie  Like at the last minutes of my break there's this cute cat girl that sat by me but she was on her phone and we dont have a big break area ha I was sitting in not my usual spot unfortunately oh well I'm just chill

Some girl at my workplace was talking about her trouble kids she was in tears about one of them. Her crying made me think of the control room chick it's weird as you can think I mean holy moly I mean I just melted inside and played it cool on the outside probably said stuff I shouldn't have said whatever that's me  Just like I wear a flyers jersey on Halloween would be a scout's Jersey with the hat haven't got that yet, Inside baseball on that I want the arizona coyotes to move to KC and become the scouts, never happen but one can dream. Flyers would still be my team though

What is wrong with Phoenix in general? Who taught everyone to be sheltered and well assholes I'm being frank here When someone says hello it doesn't mean, "they want something", "they're hitting on you", "they're trying to talk to you" etc. I mean this is what I imagine they're thinking just based off of what I think. Usually these aren't busy and don't have a place to be. Funny story I use to live in a place where you'd see someone rushing to work and they still say hello then said I'm late for work (didn't even know this person) but I said hello back. How hard is it to do that, shucks even my brief stint in Texas people had the common courtesy. At work, I don't mind I personally don't conversate myself but I work in a warehouse and I get into the zone but if someone says hello to me you bet i'm gonna give the courtesy back of saying hello and I do. And no I don't think its because of the techn

Interesting that I find myself in a situation where people do not bother me at work I dont bother them its zing and zang great. Would I like to talk and get to know people sure but that causes way more trouble Besides when you have dudes in your own department telling you the girl you like don't like you tends to be an issue although I just ignore it (use to talk to this person on a regular basis). Doesn't matter to me Which leads me to believe and this is how I act is you do your job take advantage of OT if offered then go home, no worry, no questioning  or no exertion of climbing up the company ladder. That I can live with will I be here a long time, I dont know I'd like to think I'd find something better

So I need to start reading some books I bought as well as some things I actually printed out, but I want to delve deeper, someone is actually reading these but who? Are they luminescent in the dark? Are they part of a clandestine group? Is someone spying? .....just kidding Whoever it is hope you enjoy reading them and if your just skipping through thats ok too.

This weekend I had some German Beers two preface it was two bottles a night for 3 days. Tried out the new mugs I got. If you want good quality beer go for the German beer, some say Belgium but to me Belgium beer is reserved for people who just want to get wasted. Anyways I did break what I said before about drinking no beer but I figure why not slowly ween off of it plus its October I figure celebrate Oktoberfest like an American lol. Plus why not end with a quality beer as well. From here on out no beer unless its social and if its social 1 to 2 beers max.

You know I tend to think this more and more I'm in my 30s and still dont have a woman I'm even dating. I always ponder the workplace and there's this girl but I know she doesn't like me guys quickly to point that out but I'm beginning to realize I'm not going to keep the last name going not at this rate and I will have no legacy 

Ever think to yourself waking up each morning to go to work "whats the point?" what does this accomplish? Why make money? Why does it matter? I think that I'm not going to lie especially when you're a recluse yet you do this everyday. I look at positives like for instance my main job is simple I do one task and thats it, no one bothers me unless I make a mistake. Its better than security especially contract security, yet I want to go back into that field working for a university or something thats not contracted. Why? Maybe its personal maybe I want to prove people wrong who knows if it will happen though. I'm not shy to say this, security is a thankless job and you get handed a lot of unwanted tasks.

I feel if you have a smooth transition on what your goals are you're more likely to succeed if you don't do that you'll be irradiated (irritated) and grumpy that is why in the month of October, i'll be drinking strictly German beers if I drink why not I have nothing going on in my life that would warrant anything else plus, german beer is great (two bottles just enough). Plus, I bought a German stein gotta test drive it man LOL.

So career wise I'm going in circles, the upward mobility in these companies I work for are slim to none. Yet somehow I think its going to get better even though I'm paranoid with my current situation. I keep thinking I'm just as good as those good ole boys who keep getting internships and who are paving there way for a fun and exciting career or who knows it just might be a side effect of being 31 LOL.

First off, let me preface by saying this of course I'd love stars on my team anyone would but, if I were in control I would choose people who would be considered undesirable. Ones who hop from team to team or job to job with one catch a record of picking themselves backup and marching again. In other-words they never give up they may need to cool off and take a vacation but they get back into the hunt and live to fight another day. In my opinion you can build off that and make it great. Vague I know thats how it should be. (I know doesn't make sense)

Steins 1 liter with a big handle used to drink I'm talking about the glass ones. Then you have the decorative ones which are sold to tourists who don't know any better and Germans for very special occasions. Google "Oktoberfest is in September" and you get this: "Held annually in Munich, Bavaria, Germany, it is a 16- to 18-day folk festival running from mid or late  September  to the first Sunday in October, with more than six million people from around the world attending the event every year." Interesting right? People in the US don't realize this we are ignorant somewhat of culture and adopt as if it were our own then put our own stupid spin like St. Patrick's Day and "Danny Boy" that's not a celebration song whatsoever why is it sung in many bars on that day its dumb here's the song pay attention to the song its very depressing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ppdB6JX99Q Anyways, I realized I've never enjoyed Oktoberf

I don't think so, then again it could be. I think if you are dating or in a relationship you're damn eyes should be on your girl, if your single I still don't see the problem with it, women do it too they just can hide it better than men. Now gawking well its a bit weird but can't say i haven't done it because I have and sometimes you can't help it that's the nature of men. The part of lust I'm talking about is porn and is it ok to watch it for instance. Well to each his own I don't judge that way but I'm beginning to realize that its not really productive and its a bit damaging. Its not productive because the time spent on it a lot like getting drunk, that time can be allocated to better activities something that you can build upon. I feel you're more prone to go into vices and not attempting to get a relationship that everyone deserves. In a sense you are in you're own "perverted" fantasies. Everyone has a fetish, a quirk is

This is not because you would learn bad things about them. To me people have there faults I certainly do. And by people I mean a human not a corporation screw the corporation they are not people I hate that law that passed that said they were a person therefore they can donate to a political campaign (especially hate companies who subcontract) but that's not part of this discussion. If you learn about the people who you admire and the people you tout as hero's you may get obsessed with them. I mean by a thought, a popular quote for instance "what would Jesus do". Emulating Jesus to me lacks creativity and an ability to think for yourself. You become a person that your not. When you meet this person you are excited, hyped, want to know everything about them when in reality they are just like you. Think about this how would you react to that if someone did that to you and you were the 1,434th person, wouldn't you get annoyed? Instead, try to take this approach, do

So recently I decided to get off of booze. Before this I was drinking on a regular basis, sometimes weekends sometimes on the weekday. Now I'm feeling congestion, sleeplessness, etc. Its amazing what alcohol can do to the body. The reason why I'm choosing to stop it (except for the occasional night out which i rarely happens since I don't have any friends to do that with anyways) is because I feel it makes a negative impact on me and it alters me. I want to feel again (in the mind) and that's whats happening right now I'm thinking more clearly. Feeling mean something to me again whether its a horrible or a good feeling I know that doesn't make sense but that's how I feel right now. I want to keep it this way just like how I do it when I visit Vegas or my trip from a couple of months ago in the KC Metro area I had 0 alcohol and had fun. Maybe I should focus on getting a friend or two maybe I shouldn't, the way I read myself is I'm better off alone (ju

You know i've been watching some videos even crazy ones like some person who had a theory that there were "glow in the dark cia agents" funny stuff but enlightening because we all have that inner selves that most of us don't project and gambling documentaries. Casinos are in business to make money the most grey area and semi shadiest way possible in my opinion. They prey on the most vulnerable and only care about "time on device" aka slot machines. Ever wonder why the chairs are so comfy that's the reason. I still gamble and I still have a itching to work in a casino and I don't know why. Airplane crashes interest me I've watched numerous documentaries on the subject, I love it, in fact I have always thought back and wondered if i should've gotten a degree in the field of forensics or criminal justice so I can become a part of the NTSB not only to investigate the crash but to see the aftermath (recovery sites, bodies how they pull apart,

Lets call this a previous series of events without going into too much detail, long story short the end game of those events didn't end well and I possibly could have course corrected it way early on had I known where this person was from originally. See I had an inclination a familiarization just by the way this person carried themselves. It was very reminiscent to the Midwest I'm talking the center states. Either I was blind or had messed it up from the start. The feeling that I have now is that I could have corrected it by just talking and bringing up where I grew up. Overtime I feel I could have made a friend or an acquaintance. I also feel this would of opened me up to the rest of the staff because I believe that they might have had similar backgrounds. Long story short I could've been there right now as a part of the regular staff instead I'm continuing to just do the grind and trying to find a situation similar to that again. This opportunity I had could have pro

https://www.phillyvoice.com/report-phillies-gave-gm-matt-klentak-president-andy-macphail-secret-three-year-extensions/ More of a scathing opinion piece hope you enjoy its entertaining Secretly the Phillies just extened Klentakexcuse and McFail to extensions WHY?! They haven't shown anything, they built a power house club full of bats but no pitching to back it up, bullpen is battered with injuries Kapler is a mess, the clubhouse seems to be in disarray (and don't tell me no its because there Gritty), this season again there in First place then there in 2nd now there 3rd place the answer is to get rid of Kapler but I guess management still believes in this guy, at this point even though i don't like the guy i'd rather have Wathan hell I'd take Pete Mckannon or Ruby Amaro over this "analytics manager" in Kapler. And this brings us to the owner, I believe Middleton can't take an L on this one I think he is stubborn and wants to be right. He wants t

I feel the real reason Goldy was traded before the start of the season was for a couple of purposes. 1.) They wern't going to sign him after this year. 2.) I'm guessing they thought they were going to get a better deal for him in the off season 3.) which is a theory, the organization did not want him to surpass Gonzo as all time leader in several different categories Let me explain number 3 in a perspective that makes sense because Gonzo I assume could care less if someone surpassed him as all time leader in home runs, RBI's etc. The ownership knew there was going to be backlash getting rid of Goldschmidt so what did they do before the season even started they traded Goldy. If they decided to trade Goldschmidt midway through the year I feel that the ownership thought the impact would be more catastrophic. All fans universally look at runs, hits, home runs, and RBI's so to make this short lets take a look at those figures. Looking at Goldy's stats he would

Recently I spent five days in Kansas really six because i decided to do side trips to places I never got to see when I use to live here. I spent five years in Kansas from age 10ish to about 15 or 16 when I moved out to Arizona. To me these were the best years for me I don't know if its because of the years of age that make it so memorable or the memories I had. I did have bad days in Kansas and bad moments but now I look back and I can remember the negative but I remember more of the positives of Kansas. Kansas is where I found my love of watching sports I followed Philly because part of my family is from there but always had the Royals in the back of my mind. I remember Carlos Febles, Kevin Appier, Jeff King, Johnny Damon, Jermaine Dye and I forgot the rest I use to have those SGA cards that they would give out. First game I went to was Kansas City Royals vs the New York Yankees I forgot the year and the score but this was when Kaufman Stadium wasn't even renovated when it ha